So err, yeah...

Here's a few things I'm speculatin' on at the mo...

People are going to say bad things about you, it's inevitable, and your only defense is being convinced of your own goodness.

Someone once explained to me after I remarked something like this, "How come the memories that pop into my head are inevitably bad things, when I've got a thousand more great things I've done that are great memories, could pop into my head?" by answering, "The human mind is still wired like it was a thousand years ago, bad things are more important to remember since they're more important to the survival instinct. If you remember a tribesman was eaten by a snake at this particular bend in the trail, it's more important to your survival than when you cracked the tribe up with a series of funny stories afterwards, that subsequently resulted in you getting laid."
Well anyways, I had one more thing I wanted to quote, but I can't find it...since I've been quite the internet wanderer over the last few days, but it was something I read over at wired or one of its blogs in the last coupla' days, in their comments section. Unfortunately I can't find the post to link to, (and I have frustratingly searched) but it was in context about harboring ideas for money.

The commenter said something like this, "If you know what e=mc2 means, that's a stolen idea. But nobody thinks in terms of that..."[then said summore things] and ended with..."if you think you're going to make money from your idea, by all means, hide it. The world won't miss you, or your idea. It's not about making money, but about what you're adding to the human experience."
(that's a paraphrase...but pretty close)

Anyways, it was the last bit that caught my attention and made me get a small grip on my otherwise stupid doubts and internal or external criticism. It's probly that the world will rarely hear, or talk about, "the human experience." I guess because it either doesn't make much money, or because it's too damn big to talk about. But it doesn't change the fact that within that experience, what you do, make, create, share, experience, and convey, does make a difference.

It would be nice if someone came up with a metric about people who are adding to "the human experience" like the list of the 100 richest people on the planet. I'd sure be interested if any of the top 100 of the latter made the list.